I was in labor for about 22 hours, 16 of which were spent in the hospital. I pushed for around an hour and a half, drug-free at that point. And as soon as my little girl emerged from the nice, warm home I made for her, everyone exclaimed "Oh my God, she looks just like her daddy!" The nurses teased that at least we knew for sure who the father was (hardy-har-har), while I scanned her face for some similarity between us. Nope, nada. She was definitely her daddy's daughter.
I expected her to grow and look more like me. Wrong again! She has his smile, his frown, his concentrating gaze, she even gives me the same withering stare when I do something silly. Except for the red hair (which comes directly from my dad, thankyouverymuch) she is alllllllllllll J.
Little Toots also prefers her Papa to me. If I try to kiss her, she pushes me away and declares "No!" If I pick her up, she squiggles and squirms until I have to put her down for fear of dropping her! She wants Daddy to change her (that I don't mind), Daddy to take her outside, Daddy to push her on the swing. Daddy Daddy Daddy. Excuse me, I was the one in labor for TWENTY TWO HOURS, kid, not to mention the permanent damage done to my bladder, the stretch marks, and the saggy pancakes that were once my perky boobies! Seriously folks, I used to have a figure, and now I look like one of those tribal women in Africa that have never had the pleasure of a Victoria's Secret in their village.
Yes, so the baby looks like my husband, but does she act like him? Yeah, because I'd be that lucky! No, no, she acts just like me! As much as she resembles J physically, emotionally she is me! She has a screaming fit if she can't do something right the first time, and all hell brakes loose if you try to help her, because she HAS to do it by herself. Sheesh! She hates socks, and she is an incredibly picky eater. Yup, that's me in a nutshell. But she has some of my good qualities, too. She loves music, and bops along when I sing in the car. She seems to like books, although at this point she just turns the pages and call it a day. She's a talker, which I think is good (but my father might disagree!)
I can find a bit of J and a bit of myself every time I look at Little Toots, but I'm more excited to see who she is going to be - a beautiful, red-headed, unique, and brilliant little girl.